clock strikes 11:02

Since i've been at school this has been the latest i've woken up. I woke up around 10:40 but man was i sleepy. I had some funky dream to but i cant really remember exactly what happened but i was a cheerleader and this other girl who was a cheerleader was really mean to me and i tried to park my bike somewhere closer to the school and then this girl yelled at me and told me to get out of her bike spot..idk it was stupid...then i went to church and it was spring but the kids were putting on a christmas show and it wasnt that they were performing the actual show..they were rehearsing..it was wacked out. Anyways i have a lot of studying to do today so im going to get on that as soon as the lady who cleans the bathroom is done so i can go use it and wash up. AH i dont like sleeping more than 8 hours. I get a headache when i wake up..sigh oh btw...one of my roommates went home because she was really sick...now the other one is sick and shes coughing up a storm. AH and she goes everywhere in the room...actually never leaves the room..so my room is an incubator full of germs. lysol anyone?

I am so impatient.

You know i always thought i was considered "patient" but recently i've noticed that i am quite the opposite when it comes to what I want and what I need...emphasizing the "I" in this...seriously...because when i order things online..i always check my e-mail every couple minutes to see if the status of the delivery has changed...or when i want a certain day to come..i focus only on that day and i disregard everything else (which is very bad)...but i decided this year i want to change that. I want to polish the better things about myself and work on the things that suck. For starters i think i have a good drive...but i lack in focus. I need great amounts of motivation or incentives in order for me to put my whole heart into something otherwise im so quick to quitting. I WANT TO PERSEVERE!!!!!....
Already i had two bad quiz scores..and the others were just average...i want to be above and beyond average. I am going to be a junior next year and by that time i want something amazing to happen or a great opportunity to peak up but in order to do that i need to get my priorities straight. I decided to boot myself off facebook so i can focus more on the important things and not shed anymore precious minutes on narcissism (well on there at least) and the unedifying features about the site as a whole. I believe facebook is one of the biggest argument starters and negativity builders. I'm going to see how my study habits are now that im off of it and how much more ill be focused on the important things...like school and God. I also want to make a period of time where i can fellowship with other people and spend more quality times with my friends and future roommate (that way ill speak up when i want next year if there are problems)...

There are a lot of things to look forward to...but it just seems so far away from now..sigh..

Well ill be updating more on here just so you guys know im alive since i will not be using my stupid facebook for awhile..it will be hard..haha but if you do need to contact me...give me a shout via e-mail
xjxane@gmail.com
kimjane5@msu.edu

i check it all the time =D so wooty!

I love Mail!!!

wooo woo so i got a package in the mail today from my girl christina!!! weee =D and inside was enclosed a late christmas card..and a SOCK MONKEY! i've always wanted one and idk it was fate that i never bought one cause she got it for me as a gift..so yay =)

Lateeee post

Hello people in the blogger world!
OKAY, so i know i havent updated in awhile..and my apologies for that...(for those of you who've missed me)..i guess its because not much has been going on lately...As you know classes have started up again and i went to KCF retreat..which was a lot of fun and i recommend for all state kcf members to attend once before the 4 years is up because its a great way to make bonding friendships which i really didnt expect. The other night i was rushed out of my room to catch Nick and Noras infinite playlist play at wells for free. IT WAS GOOD. i really liked it. It was corny and funny and Michael Cera is super cute and it was shot in NEW YORK. SO DUH I WOULD LOVE IT....oh the memories brought back..haha =)

So...yesterday in class for my com 225 interpersonal relationships class..there was a brief mention about facebook and how it basically owns OUR LIVES...(well via internet/facebook)...it is copyrighted that anything we put on there is archived so even the "privacy" is not privacy at all...here is the e-mail sent to us after our lecture from our profs..


but basically anything put on there is now legally owned by facebook..your pictures, messages, wall posts, EVERYTHING. make sure you think twice before putting something up..because you never know...fb just might sell your stuff...hahaha

I have been missing missions everyday this week...i miss the weather..the fuzzy feeling..the warm encounters with God and the amazing moments in fellowship...i wish summer would get here soon...
I had my first quiz in advertising this morning and i bombed i think. and for a true and false question..there was something about "T or F...55% of women take up the role in Public relations"..I KNEW IT WAS FALSE BECAUSE THE ANSWER WAS 70%...BUT I WROTE TRUE...because i second guessed..ahhh i should have went with my gut knowledge about this...ahhh

So i've been on the Kevin ( a friend up at state who eats healthy and works out ) diet...and its been working out okay haha because the foods actually pretty good...but there are days where i cheat =X...like today..i went to sushi with stan and Christine

Spicy Tuna from Omi...YUM YUM

So somebody posted a picture of a dog...THAT LOOKS LIKE A PANDA...

Okay...so possibly the best and closest thing im going to get to a real panda...but she told me that they keep breeding them until they look like this and im sure there are chemicals involved..which makes it sort of sad..and makes me cringe...BUT they are adorable..and i for sure want one =D hehe

Lately i've been spending money left and right...AH i need to stop.. ONE OF THE BIGGEST DOWNFALLS of living at a dorm...i want mail..therefore i buy things so i receive mail...lol pathetic i know...but i've learned so much about online shopping this year..haha but i decided that im going to put away my credit card for the rest of this month and half of next month...just so i can learn how to save..because honestly its been getting quite out of hand...AHHH
okay so i think that was a well worth update..hope all is well and ill update soon enough!

-Jane

OMGOMGOMG and ps.

fuji to canon....can we say UPGRADE?!


A BIG THANK YOU TO...you know who =D
omg...a;lsjd;foa8;pwejf;aljksdf;lkdj I LOVE IT.

KCF retreat

i went in with no expectations and came out with more than enough blessings. I really enjoyed the company of those who i would have never really initially talked to. Overall the trip was well received, besides the fact that my camera is..so...BROKEN! :( omg. I left it out in the snow for 9 hours and it wont turn on without the charger cord in it...=( sad day. But ne ways...pretty tired so im gonna go do some reading...ill update more later!

Back to East Lansing

"it is your responsibility to learn how to love as God does, because God is love. It honors him."

So these past three days i've been having a rough time readjusting to school mode. I had mini break downs yesterday and the day before...more than going into detail as to why i was so upset...im going to say this. Thank you God. I just keep telling myself to praise him for whatever situation he puts me in. Even when in result i say i hate myself. Which sometimes i really do...i guess more and more i dont like myself but as the days progress i keep telling myself...by saying i dnt like myself..im saying i dont like God. My classes are going okay so far...its a pretty full schedule..but my tuesday/thursday/fridays are good. I only have one class on each of those days. Mondays are the worst! ACK!!!! BUTTTTTTTTTT over break i did give my phone a makeover! :)




Goodbye hearts...hello stars!

Break coming to a close

This time last year in 2007-2008 i was just figuring out what i wanted to do in the summer and what i wanted to do for the next semester. This time last year my focus was a little more hazy, but not anymore...im going to be super focused when i get back to school. But heres a recap of my break when i wasnt sleeping and being lazy =)

2008
The first official gathering with my friends =) christmas party

Christmas party at my place in 2007

The "tri" meetings =)...from this year

last year...

This past break =)

Last years dinner for Haneen...also a goodbye before she headed off to school

New years eve this year....on the train alone..haha

New years eve last year.....bahhh

So year 2008 you were good to me. I finished my first year as a college student..and renewed my faith this past summer. I wonder what the year of 2009 is to bring me. I am going through some things and i was hoping that my readers could uplift a prayer for me...i know i've changed a lot..im hoping to change even more...i can see that last winter break i didnt make the best choices...and even more...i can still see that im not making all the right choices...but im hoping that i will continue to grow in faith and just move forward for a brighter future =)

Sailor Moon

I have been on a Sailor Moon rampage this past week. I absolutely love watching it. haha its hilarious and i never realized how lazy serena is. All she wants to do is eat and sleep. sounds like me =D....This past break has been glorious. A lot of fun and relaxing. I'm sort of sad to go off to school only because ill be leaving the comforts of my home behind. Sometime this month my family is moving. Not to another house to an apartment. Actually when i say family i mean mother and father. Except my dad will be going back and forth to Korea, as well as my mom i think. So i guess this is a repeat of my senior year. Dad runs off to business, mother stuck alone...me and brother away at school...thats probably why their moving. Now it wont be so scary for my mom to be the only one living in this house...so long Columbia Street. I had so many memories with you. I'll just have to start my future and find a permanent address elsewhere...sigh

Happy Birfday

WELL, January is all about the birthdays. Yesterday was my brothers, today is my cousin Barrons, the 12th is my dads, the 21st my mothers, my grandfathers is coming up and so is my grandma i think...

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FAM =) love you guys..well most of you..haha
so officially...today is DAY ONE. DAY ONE OF:
motivation
hard work
self-discipline
courage


woowoo =) and ughh UOFM people go back tomorrow..meaning ill miss you Alyssa...:(
and i go back this coming sunday...so all you state people...see you then :)..

wow already almost a month...crazy how time flies. for sure.

Upgrade

Starting tomorrow, i am going to be motivated to change myself. IN GOOD WAYS. cant wait to just reach my goal point =D
I'm trying to reschedule my classes for this spring semester but its not working out in my favor...sigh ill just have to deal with it...i cant wait until summer though. I'm so excited for all the amazing things that can happen this summer! YAY

hehe cant wait. =)

Anonymous Post

--"Everything that happened should of resulted in hatred and separation. None of the results would make sense to anyone. But they are how they are...because God's plan is perfect."

I have learned that humility and self-sacrifice is one of the beginning steps to a greater life. Thank you Lord for giving me wings, to take flight and to take a glimpse of my past as a reminder of greater days to come...
Tonight was the Christmas party/newyears/back to school party for the kids in my youth group! it was a lot of fun and i love helping out =D

yeah they called us the "Jane and her boyfriends"
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"You were only given this life
because you are strong enough to live it."--God knows just how much you can handle

WOOWOO =)

Happy New Years 09

Wow. My first post for the year of 2009. This year will be amazing! I can feel it..=D
...I saw Wicked today..and let me tell you...i LOVED IT. it was the BEST christmas gift i have ever received by far!
I'm just so happy right now. I feel as though God just decided to fill my head with so many blessings. I had a lot of time to think to myself today and reflect on my life. The negatives and positives, but truthfully in all my negatives i could only see the good it brought me. I'm just thinking about all my resolutions and all the goals i had set for myself in the previous years. They were all so shallow, materialistic, and very selfish. I wanted things to happen in my life so they would benefit me. This year, i have new goals, new resolutions and new things that i want to work out with God. No compromises, conditions, or degrees as to how far ill go in order to receive Gods good grace. This year, i am going to follow my heart. Listen to my convictions, not ignore what i KNOW is right and do things the way that God would want me to do it. I sound like a Jesus freak, but i dont care. I thought all my negativity would get me nowhere. It was only until i had my encounter with God, that i truly saw life for what it worth and not a trap out to get me.
I'm so sorry to the people i use to call my enemies. I'm so sorry to my family, i know better than to bash on my life and to see that only tragedies happen to me. I am so in love. I have found my love and he was there right in front of me. He is never going to leave me, no matter how far i push him. Yeah, you guessed it. He, that person whom i love and will die for..is God. I will die. EVERYDAY. more of myself will be given unto him so that i can be weak. The strong are only strong because they were once weak and the weak have no where to go but rock bottom. What is there left to lose, you can only go up. I know this is something that i have always known, and yes i have rain upon me everyday, but eventually the sun will come out. All that pain, bitterness, the deep feelings of losing control, they will fade and i will see a new revelation. So i am thankful. For everyone in my life. The ones that encourage me to keep going, the ones that tear me down, because lets face it...those people are the ones who pushed me to God. No matter who is in my life. Thank you. For your love and hate. Thank you.

and stephen, thank you...just because...
So come on guys...whos ready to get owned this year?....
i know i am. WOOWOO!! =)